I need a reason to try go on
To fight the nonsense of every day
Otherwise one day I will close my eyes
And never open them again

The reason can’t be a feeling
Mine are too fragile
Too fleeting.
And something that can’t be written down will be forever lost to the air.

The reason must be a system
Some string of dos and don’ts to follow
But all systems lead to a feeling
And I am lost again.

12.VII.21