Where have I left it?
I certainly put it somewhere
I had it once, now I don’t
Where is it now?

I’ve lost it, no doubt
So I look for it
To find it again
And I must find it again,

I must
Remember
Those early years
When I skipped and bounced

From one wall to the other
Of the home
That fortune crumbled
Beneath too much pain.

The years when I watched
With fuzzy eyes I cannot rub
Silly films and epic shows
And I found myself squished

In a sandwich of happiness
Between Mom and Dad
Hugging
Me in between.

I must find it
Scrape bloody nails into dirt
Dig deep
With my only muscle

For I’ve only lost it
I’ve left it somewhere beneath
These sixteen years
Of pain.

11.XI.24